Sorry I keep going MIA.
I was cleared for exercise early last week so I joined a new gym that has classes. So far I did cycling on Saturday, and did kickboxing tonight, and I'm going back for another cycling class tomorrow.
Cycling kicked my ass hard! I was in tears 15 minutes into it, and I really thought I was going to throw up when I was done, but it was really rewarding to have some women come up and say "You MADE it through the whole class! I didnt make it the whole way through my first time!". Though I can say my ass hurt so bad, I swear it swallowed the seat. They said after the first few classes it wont hurt as bad.
Kickboxing was fun. Im not as coordinated as I used to be, but it was fun and I worked up a great sweat! Too bad I got my period an hour before I left for it, or I think I could have worked a little harder.
They also have yoga and zumba classes. I think though I'd rather do a morning zumba class so there arent as many skinny stuck up little beotches lol.
Thats about it for excitement lol. I am really enjoying the warmer weather thats for sure :)
Monday, March 22, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
There is no point in lying, it catches up with you in the end.
You dont learn anything unless you talk and be honest.
I've been cheating, a lot. But I've come to realize you cant break bad habits you've had for years overnight. I could sit here and say "Oh, yes, I've been textbook to the T", which would be nothing more then a boldfaced lie. We're all human, we make mistakes.
I wish I could say I'm full and feel satisfied after I eat, but that isnt the case at all. I know its going to take some time before I find that "sweet spot", but I really think its going to take longer for me then I thought.
I've ceased making anymore goals. Making a goal is like setting myself up for failure, which is rather sad. I've never had high expectations for myself because I've always ended up being disappointed. Like now. I told myself I was going to be 20lbs less in 2-3weeks, and here I am UP 3lbs.
16lbs is still good, this I know. But when you have so much weight to lose, 16lbs is almost a joke. I think what bothers me the most now is when I talk to someone the first thing out of their mouthes anymore are, "So have you lost more weight"? No, actually I've gained thanks. No, I dont really say that, could you imagine all of my neysayers responses if I said that? Its like being pardoned on death row and then going out and killing people. (ok, so that may be a little extreme, lets say getting a slap on the wrist for shop lifting then going out and stealing a thousand dollars worth of stuff).
I need to get to the gym. I was cleared for any exercise I feel I can do (minus ab work obviously), but since my husband is always so busy and never around at night I havent been able to make it there to sign up. I want to sign up for some cycling and kickboxing classes, as well as lots of cardio.
22 days until my fill...Hoping that can help kick start me back into weight loss.
I've been cheating, a lot. But I've come to realize you cant break bad habits you've had for years overnight. I could sit here and say "Oh, yes, I've been textbook to the T", which would be nothing more then a boldfaced lie. We're all human, we make mistakes.
I wish I could say I'm full and feel satisfied after I eat, but that isnt the case at all. I know its going to take some time before I find that "sweet spot", but I really think its going to take longer for me then I thought.
I've ceased making anymore goals. Making a goal is like setting myself up for failure, which is rather sad. I've never had high expectations for myself because I've always ended up being disappointed. Like now. I told myself I was going to be 20lbs less in 2-3weeks, and here I am UP 3lbs.
16lbs is still good, this I know. But when you have so much weight to lose, 16lbs is almost a joke. I think what bothers me the most now is when I talk to someone the first thing out of their mouthes anymore are, "So have you lost more weight"? No, actually I've gained thanks. No, I dont really say that, could you imagine all of my neysayers responses if I said that? Its like being pardoned on death row and then going out and killing people. (ok, so that may be a little extreme, lets say getting a slap on the wrist for shop lifting then going out and stealing a thousand dollars worth of stuff).
I need to get to the gym. I was cleared for any exercise I feel I can do (minus ab work obviously), but since my husband is always so busy and never around at night I havent been able to make it there to sign up. I want to sign up for some cycling and kickboxing classes, as well as lots of cardio.
22 days until my fill...Hoping that can help kick start me back into weight loss.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Wrong way.
I knew as soon as I made a "goal" it would go sour. Always does. I asked the scale to move and what does it do? Goes UP 2lbs.Damn.
I'm having a really hard time. I've been eating more and more solid foods, and Im not feeling full at all. I am really considering calling my doctor and begging for a fill a little earlier then almost a month from now. April 6th is just way too far away.
I've become so obsessed with LBT. A wonderful friend sent me a webcam last week and I've been obsessed with that too. I feel like I'm really close to those who I can see, but regardless, there are so many great people on that site and I'm glad to have met them.
Things are hectic here, as always. Last week was a really bad week. I've been having a lot of problems with my daughter, and my son is just full force terrible twos. My husband is back to thinking he doesnt need to help around the house anymore, and that just isnt going over to well with me.
I feel alone. I went to the hospital support group last week. It wasnt anything like I thought, it was more for people who are getting ready to have the surgery. Although, I think I spoke more then the RN did lol. I felt really important though, and having someone actually LISTEN and take what I say into consideration was a good feeling. I also exchanged email and phone number to one woman who was considering it. She was older, and such a nice lady. I wish her the best of luck on her choice, and I do hope to hear from her.
I am going to join Curves again for a little while. Apparently if you've had the LB you get 2 weeks free and a 50% discount, so I'm totally there. That was one thing that actually did work for me when I was doing it, I had lost almost 2 pant sizes. I need to also join my new gym. Working out I think will help me a lot more, since I'm really not doing much right now.
I hope you're all doing well. Sorry I havent been commenting lately, just been hectic. You guys can always find me in LBT chat room though :)
I'm having a really hard time. I've been eating more and more solid foods, and Im not feeling full at all. I am really considering calling my doctor and begging for a fill a little earlier then almost a month from now. April 6th is just way too far away.
I've become so obsessed with LBT. A wonderful friend sent me a webcam last week and I've been obsessed with that too. I feel like I'm really close to those who I can see, but regardless, there are so many great people on that site and I'm glad to have met them.
Things are hectic here, as always. Last week was a really bad week. I've been having a lot of problems with my daughter, and my son is just full force terrible twos. My husband is back to thinking he doesnt need to help around the house anymore, and that just isnt going over to well with me.
I feel alone. I went to the hospital support group last week. It wasnt anything like I thought, it was more for people who are getting ready to have the surgery. Although, I think I spoke more then the RN did lol. I felt really important though, and having someone actually LISTEN and take what I say into consideration was a good feeling. I also exchanged email and phone number to one woman who was considering it. She was older, and such a nice lady. I wish her the best of luck on her choice, and I do hope to hear from her.
I am going to join Curves again for a little while. Apparently if you've had the LB you get 2 weeks free and a 50% discount, so I'm totally there. That was one thing that actually did work for me when I was doing it, I had lost almost 2 pant sizes. I need to also join my new gym. Working out I think will help me a lot more, since I'm really not doing much right now.
I hope you're all doing well. Sorry I havent been commenting lately, just been hectic. You guys can always find me in LBT chat room though :)
Monday, March 8, 2010
Move scale move!
I've been stuck for 3 days now. I just wanted to be under 260, and of course here I am sitting right at 260. I feel like I did when I was doing WW, I lost weight then BOOM, stopped. This is so frusterating, I wish I could go to the gym and workout. I dont have anywhere to walk around here, but I might pack up and take Lucas to where my mom lives. They have a huge public walking area.
I'm cleared for mushies this week, but I'm still struggling to eat. However I went to a birthday party yesterday and I had a few crackers with dip. They went down and stayed down just fine. They were triscuits, so I didnt feel as bad. But I did go overboard when I licked some icing from the cake and ate a tiny tiny piece. I felt sick to my stomach almost immedietly. Learned my lesson there.
I've been distant from a lot of my friends lately. I just dont feel like talking to anyone anymore. I belong to another blog site and I said I was leaving it. I wrote about how I wasnt eating as much (but being on a liquid diet there isnt much you can eat), and I got a lot of rude comments how how I was meant to get the band to help control eating, not stop, and how unhealthy I was being and such. Of course, these comments came from thin people who dont know what its like to be fat, let alone morbidly obese.
I cant wait for my fill, it cant come soon enough. I want to see the weight continue to come off. I'm so frusterated. If Im this annoyed now, I dont what to know how I am going to be when it really stalls.
Life is tough right now. My daughter has been such a horrible challenge, my husband and I arent getting along because he's never home and we havent had sex in months. I'm tired of feeling so detached. Our house is still falling apart, and of course our landlord wont fix anything, the greedy bitch, so we have to fork out more money that we dont have to do it (Long story for new readers, she's my FIL's wife, and the whole argument about her paying for stuff is a wasted time).
And to top it off, I fell down the stairs yesterday (for the 10 millionth time) and stoved my finger. Its all swollen and bruising now. Of course when I fell no one came to help, my husbands response was "You're always falling down the stairs, its getting kind of old". Gee, thanks hun.
I'm cleared for mushies this week, but I'm still struggling to eat. However I went to a birthday party yesterday and I had a few crackers with dip. They went down and stayed down just fine. They were triscuits, so I didnt feel as bad. But I did go overboard when I licked some icing from the cake and ate a tiny tiny piece. I felt sick to my stomach almost immedietly. Learned my lesson there.
I've been distant from a lot of my friends lately. I just dont feel like talking to anyone anymore. I belong to another blog site and I said I was leaving it. I wrote about how I wasnt eating as much (but being on a liquid diet there isnt much you can eat), and I got a lot of rude comments how how I was meant to get the band to help control eating, not stop, and how unhealthy I was being and such. Of course, these comments came from thin people who dont know what its like to be fat, let alone morbidly obese.
I cant wait for my fill, it cant come soon enough. I want to see the weight continue to come off. I'm so frusterated. If Im this annoyed now, I dont what to know how I am going to be when it really stalls.
Life is tough right now. My daughter has been such a horrible challenge, my husband and I arent getting along because he's never home and we havent had sex in months. I'm tired of feeling so detached. Our house is still falling apart, and of course our landlord wont fix anything, the greedy bitch, so we have to fork out more money that we dont have to do it (Long story for new readers, she's my FIL's wife, and the whole argument about her paying for stuff is a wasted time).
And to top it off, I fell down the stairs yesterday (for the 10 millionth time) and stoved my finger. Its all swollen and bruising now. Of course when I fell no one came to help, my husbands response was "You're always falling down the stairs, its getting kind of old". Gee, thanks hun.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Feeeeeed meeeeeee
I swear if my stomach had arms it would punch me in the face.
Day 9. Hot damn. The scale didnt feel like moving today apparently, which was slightly disappointing. I would like to lose 7lbs by Monday, so that would put me at 20lbs down in 2 weeks. I really dont think its unreachable but I think I may just stick with clears to get it going. I hear a lot that if you lose a lot in the beginning you slow down later and vice versa, so if thats the case I'd like to keep trucking along until I hit that point.
I almost ate a bowl of chicken tortilla soup (which can I say was magic in my mouth), but I panicked and called my surgons office and they said its still a no no unless I strain it real well (no, I refuse to strain my damn soup). So I sadly gave it up and let my friend take the rest home with her.
I dont want to eat, yet I'm so hungry. I just dont like having such a big restraintment put on me. Its like, I'd rather eat normal food (good food, not junk), or not eat at all. I cant bring myself to eat. I can hardly choke down water anymore.
I took my steri strips off last night. I got the ok to take them off when they started to curl, and I have to say, those strips made the incisions look worse then they really are. My port area is almost all healed, the only place with a bit of scabbing is by my belly button. I'm pretty impressed.
Here is what I'm having on Sunday, and for those who are headed to the mushie stage, this is perfect because its pureed!
"The Best Chicken Salad Ever"-Taken from AllRecipies.com
Ingredients
2 boneless chicken breast halves, cooked
1/4 cup creamy salad dressing
4 tablespoons cole slaw dressing
1 stalk celery, chopped
1/4 onion, chopped
salt and pepper to taste
Directions
1.In a food processor, combine the chicken, creamy salad dressing, cole slaw dressing, celery, onion, and salt and pepper. Mix until well chopped.
Nutritional Stats
Calories-103
Fat-6.3g
Protein-7.6g
This recipe got AMAZING reviews. I'll let you guys know how it turns out. Let me know if you're trying it too
Day 9. Hot damn. The scale didnt feel like moving today apparently, which was slightly disappointing. I would like to lose 7lbs by Monday, so that would put me at 20lbs down in 2 weeks. I really dont think its unreachable but I think I may just stick with clears to get it going. I hear a lot that if you lose a lot in the beginning you slow down later and vice versa, so if thats the case I'd like to keep trucking along until I hit that point.
I almost ate a bowl of chicken tortilla soup (which can I say was magic in my mouth), but I panicked and called my surgons office and they said its still a no no unless I strain it real well (no, I refuse to strain my damn soup). So I sadly gave it up and let my friend take the rest home with her.
I dont want to eat, yet I'm so hungry. I just dont like having such a big restraintment put on me. Its like, I'd rather eat normal food (good food, not junk), or not eat at all. I cant bring myself to eat. I can hardly choke down water anymore.
I took my steri strips off last night. I got the ok to take them off when they started to curl, and I have to say, those strips made the incisions look worse then they really are. My port area is almost all healed, the only place with a bit of scabbing is by my belly button. I'm pretty impressed.
Here is what I'm having on Sunday, and for those who are headed to the mushie stage, this is perfect because its pureed!
"The Best Chicken Salad Ever"-Taken from AllRecipies.com
Ingredients
2 boneless chicken breast halves, cooked
1/4 cup creamy salad dressing
4 tablespoons cole slaw dressing
1 stalk celery, chopped
1/4 onion, chopped
salt and pepper to taste
Directions
1.In a food processor, combine the chicken, creamy salad dressing, cole slaw dressing, celery, onion, and salt and pepper. Mix until well chopped.
Nutritional Stats
Calories-103
Fat-6.3g
Protein-7.6g
This recipe got AMAZING reviews. I'll let you guys know how it turns out. Let me know if you're trying it too
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