Final appointments

Yesterday I met with my PCP for clearance and today I met with Dr Hamad and Melinda the nutritionist.


I had to watch a short slide show/presentation on the bypass surgery and as soon as they started going over the complications I panicked a little. I told Mike that I didn't pay nearly as much attention or focus on complications the first time since they were always so "unlikely". He told me its perfectly healthy to have those fears. I told him I feared the whole "leak" the most. He assured me that Dr Hamad would be extra thorough in making sure I was nice and tight. When she came in she told me the same thing, that they would do several sets of sutures to make sure my stomach and intestines would not have any leaks. Here is to hoping I don't have to deal with that.


She did bring up that there would be a chance I would have a feeding tube (or a "G" tube). I'm still a little blurry on why I would need this but she said I wouldn't be going home with it. And that 95% of cases I wont have to go home with the JP drain either (ew, I'm praying I wont be that damn 5% that does). I feel pretty confident and I know Dr Hamad is a great, compassionate surgeon. She told me she blocked out 2 extra hours so she could be careful and thorough in doing my revision.


And good 'ol Melinda. She's a straight shooter, I like that. I showed her my "food log" (aka I wrote it while I was in the waiting room LOL) and we went over a few things. She said that Im already very well educated and that as long as I stick to my guns I'm going to do tremendous. She asked me what my goal weight was, I almost laughed and said "Honestly, anything under 200lbs is fantastic. But I'd like to be somewhere around 185 since I doubt I could get down to 145lbs, plus, I'd look like I was dead at that weight." She looked at me and goes "I'm very confident that you COULD be 145lbs and be perfectly happy and healthy at that weight." I was honest to God shocked. I haven't been that since I was around my daughters age (12).  I cant even visualize myself that thin. It almost gave me a rush and really made all of this even more exciting to me. She has a lot of confidence in me, and for a straight shooter like her, that actually says a lot.


So, the countdown is on. Sunday I start my clear liquid diet and next Friday I'll be heading in to celebrate yet another "rebirthday" for myself.


Man, I'm like a cat. haha.