Slack

I wish I had something exciting to say, or something juicy or good to report, but alas, I have nothing.

I'm debating on calling my dr for another fill. I havent lost weight in a month and watching the scale bounce between 238-240 is getting really annoying. It didnt help when my husband said to me after I asked him how my ass was looking, that "Its not as big anymore but now you have wing type things". He was referring to the fat in my legs that are below my hips and on my theighs, know where I'm talking about? My mother likes to point those out as well, and its very discouraging. I'm TRYING, but I have always had bigger legs, even when I was thinner.

I look in the mirror and I dont see any change. I havent taken any progress pictures and I still dont want to. I should, but I dont have a ton of "before" pictures.

I dont mean to whine, but I feel like I need to get it out somehow. Theres more I could say but I guess I'll save it for another day.

I want to say congrats to a lot of you, for reaching some awesome milestones. Carmen on your 50lbs loss, Janelle on your 30lbs loss, Steph on your 46lbs loss, and all you other beautiful ladies who are doing SO well!

I'm gonna celebrate the big 4-0!

Wow. I have to say I'm really shocked. Never in my life did I think I could lose 40lbs in 3.5 months!

I was having a lull for awhile, then all of the sudden I stepped on the scale and BAM, 3lbs down. Wonderful!

We had a birthday party for the kids' today. I cant believe in just a few days my baby will be 2, and in 2 weeks my other baby will be 8. Seriously time, you can slow down. It was nice but O-M-G it was so hot. It got to the point where I was sweating so bad and was so hot, I started seeing purple spots, which I figured wasnt a good thing. I'll try to post some pictures later, and for those who have me on facebook, they'll be posted tomorrow.

Well, thats all I have to say for now. Hope you're all well!

Chica Chicka Boom Boom

Boy I really slack at updating in here. I'm trying to keep up with all of you beautiful ladies :)

I think it might be time for another tiny fill, I'm not quite sure yet. We're going on vacation in about 3 weeks and my doctor said she'd prefer if I got filled (if I needed it), about 2-3 weeks before we go. There are times I still feel restriction, but somehow I still think I'm eating more then I should. Of course, there are times I'm still not making the best choices. The scale hates me again and hasnt moved in awhile.

I also havent been to the gym in almost 2 months. So many things are going on here that at the days end (or sometimes the beginning!) I am mentally exhausted that I couldnt even bear the thought of working out.

I'm also starting to become a little more confident. I actually went out and bought a tank top for the first time in about 5 years. (Then again it was so hot I would have walked around nude if it wasnt offensive and wrong) Although I've been purchasing more accessories then anything LOL. I am in love with Kathy Van Zeeland purses, and have already bought two, and I am trying to convince my husband that I need the third I've had my eye on. I'm just hoping it doesnt get bought! I havent seen it in stores and it is the most GORGOUS purple. Its not like offensive in your face purple, its like sheek "night on the town" purple. AAHHH! I WANT IT!

My kids's birthdays are coming up soon. *cue sob* My son will be 2 on the 17th and my daughter will be 8 on the 27th. Seriously time, you can slow down now. We're doing a joint small party for them, nothing extravagent. Cake and munchies is about it.

OOOOOOOO!!! Wipeout is back on *grins* (Yes, ADD moment). I am going to go watch people fall of the big balls. Hugs to all!