Ann Hathaway

I was standing at the help desk at Barnes and Noble, and I was asking a woman about a book and the woman stands next to her and goes, "Has anyone told you that you look like Ann Hathaway?". I was like, "Um..no lol". It kind of caught me off guard. I'm starting to feel good about myself again and that helped out big time. Yay NSV :)

Speaking of the scale, I stepped on it a half a dozen times this morning (no, I really did) and it kept reading 219.8. I was like, "This cant be right". I dont actually know if it is or not. I'd be dead shocked if it was, since it read 223 the other night. I think when my dog ran over it and tipped it he may have done something to it :/ I actually bothered me seeing that. I dont want it to be untrue and then I see it go back up 4lbs again.

My birthday is on Sunday. I'll be 26. I dont feel one way or the other about it, just another day lol. Apparently we're going to my MIL's for dinner and cake (mmmm, cake). Tomorrow my husband is taking me shopping and to dinner. I'm so excited to spend some time with just him. Dont get me wrong, I LOVE my kids, but I miss my husband.

Oh well, thats all good and fun. Hope you're all well.

Halfway

51lbs down, 51lbs to go. Things are going ok. Losing VERY slowly now adays, but it doesnt help my day consists of a pot of coffee and a bowl or two of cereal. Yes yes ladies, I know thats not going to do me any good. We've finally gotten some extra money so I can actually go grocery shopping. I plan on buying lots of fruits, veggies, and lean meats. I'm going to invidually bag the fruits and veggies, this way, it'll be easier to toss into everyones lunch and I can just grab a bag or two out of the fridge during the day. I met my Labor Day goal of losing 50lbs, so here's to my next goal of 30lbs more down by the end of the year.

Also, as awful as this might come out, hopfully someone will get what I'm trying to say. I swear the only place I've lost weight is my neck/collar area and honestly, its kind of gross to me now. Its really bony and I hate touching it. You can see this "hollow area" right in the middle of my throat (where a guys adam apple is), and it is just so foul to me. I know I should be happy to be seeing "bone", but for some reason its gross. Why cant I see my butt bones instead ;-)

Hope you're all well. I'm trying to keep up. Its so busy around here now with school back in session and me having a million things to do.

Happy Bandaversery to me.

6 months. Almost 50lbs. What?

I could cry at the thought.

It took me 6 months to lose 14lbs on my own, and now, I have lost almost half of myself already.

Seriously the most amazing thing. Hands down.

I never thought I'd be where I am now 6 months ago. I cant wait to see what the next 6 months bring.

And happy bandaversery to you too Janelle :)

I'm alive

I've been keeping up with most of you (or, the same 4 people who update lol).

My doctor called yesterday to confirm my fill for Wednesday and I said, "You know what, I was actually going to call you and decline." She goes, "Oh yeah?" I was like, "Yup, I am excited to say that I do not need to see you, even though I'd like to see you to say hi." She laughed. I asked her if she would look up my weight when I was there last and according to her records, I lost 8lbs in 5 weeks (or 3 weeks, since I had 2 weeks of no loss). She said that was wonderful and I'm really on my way. That was great to hear :)

I am 5lbs shy of my Labor Day goal, which was to be a total of 50lbs down (or 227). I am going to really step it up these next weeks so I can get to my goal. From there I want to lose another 30lbs by the end of the year, so I can be under 200lbs when its time to TTC next year. I can do this :)

I really am starting to accept and love the comments people say to me. I am really starting to feel so much better about myself, and I can feel a lot more confidence building up.

Also, here is a before and after picture of my new haircut. I am also loving the comments about how it opens up my face and makes me look even thinner :)

Comparision Pictures

Forgive me, as the first one is 2 years old, but I'm always the one behind the camera. I havent been taking progress pictures, but I really think I should start. Let me know if you see a difference, I see a slight one, but I guess it takes time to get used to :)


This one is from October 2008


This one is from last night, August 2010

Re-prioritizing.

I realized more now then ever, that I need to re-evaluate my life, my family, and my priorities. After coming home from my trip to New York to meet with a good friend of mine and her son, I realized my kids arent getting the attention or focus they deserve or the knowledge of basic things in life, such as manners or social skills.

I am also taking less care of myself. I went from trying to stuff myself stupid to hardly eating at all during the day. I need to get my anxiety, depression, and many other emotions in check. I need to do this for me.

This is probably going to be the last blog from me for a little while. I need to get back to the things that are the most important in life, and things like flipping through blogs or checking people's facebook status's should be at the lowest on my list.

I wont be gone forever, but I need to do this, for myself and my family. I'll be back soon, and hopefully, another 6lbs lighter so I can finally hit my 50lbs mark. :-)

Wish me luck.

I hit it hard!

So.. I did it! I actually went to the gym! I burned 500 calories doing the eliptical and the precor machines. Next time I am going to work on my upper body. My arms are going to need a major workout to get rid of these bingo wings.

I also realized how much my son loves to go to the daycare there, so I have found a preschool for 2 year olds. Its 1 day a week from 8:30-11. I think he'll enjoy being with kids his age. He loves other kids and I feel bad because he really has no one to play with but me, and I can get pretty boring lol. Registration is August 31st, which is also my daughters 2nd day of school, so I'm not quite sure how that'll work out since she has to be at school at 9. I might go Monday morning and register him and get it out of the way, then I can just drop him off Tuesday.

So, I am about 8lbs away from hitting the big 5-0 loss!! 50lbs in 5 months would be so amazing. I am hoping I can achieve the big goal of losing another 40 pounds by the end of the year so we can TTC next February.

Oh, and for those who might be in need of some clothes, I am looking to get rid of my size 20-24 clothes. I have jeans, shirts and sweaters (I know its early to think about those but still). If anyone is interested or knows of someone who would be interested let me know. I want to get rid of these "fat clothes" so badly.