I've been stuck for 3 days now. I just wanted to be under 260, and of course here I am sitting right at 260. I feel like I did when I was doing WW, I lost weight then BOOM, stopped. This is so frusterating, I wish I could go to the gym and workout. I dont have anywhere to walk around here, but I might pack up and take Lucas to where my mom lives. They have a huge public walking area.
I'm cleared for mushies this week, but I'm still struggling to eat. However I went to a birthday party yesterday and I had a few crackers with dip. They went down and stayed down just fine. They were triscuits, so I didnt feel as bad. But I did go overboard when I licked some icing from the cake and ate a tiny tiny piece. I felt sick to my stomach almost immedietly. Learned my lesson there.
I've been distant from a lot of my friends lately. I just dont feel like talking to anyone anymore. I belong to another blog site and I said I was leaving it. I wrote about how I wasnt eating as much (but being on a liquid diet there isnt much you can eat), and I got a lot of rude comments how how I was meant to get the band to help control eating, not stop, and how unhealthy I was being and such. Of course, these comments came from thin people who dont know what its like to be fat, let alone morbidly obese.
I cant wait for my fill, it cant come soon enough. I want to see the weight continue to come off. I'm so frusterated. If Im this annoyed now, I dont what to know how I am going to be when it really stalls.
Life is tough right now. My daughter has been such a horrible challenge, my husband and I arent getting along because he's never home and we havent had sex in months. I'm tired of feeling so detached. Our house is still falling apart, and of course our landlord wont fix anything, the greedy bitch, so we have to fork out more money that we dont have to do it (Long story for new readers, she's my FIL's wife, and the whole argument about her paying for stuff is a wasted time).
And to top it off, I fell down the stairs yesterday (for the 10 millionth time) and stoved my finger. Its all swollen and bruising now. Of course when I fell no one came to help, my husbands response was "You're always falling down the stairs, its getting kind of old". Gee, thanks hun.
Sounds like you are having a shit time right now, and I hate to sound so cliched, but hon, things WILL get better! You have done awesome on your losses so far and the scale will move again. Don't listen to what those naysayers who have NO freakin' clue what is going on with your weight have to say. You know the reality, you have us fellow bandsters to encourage and support you and there is a better day coming. I know it! :)
ReplyDeleteI agree with Stephanie, it may seem bad now but Im positive that it will get better for you. We are all going to have our rough days where we just feel like everything and everyone sucks. I know because I've already had a couple. I wish I could say something profound and wise but honestly when your feeling like this I know you probably dont really want to hear it lol...so heres to tomorrow, I hope its a better day for you. xo
ReplyDeleteSee, this is why you blog to us. We make you feel better! Hopefully, anyway.
ReplyDeleteYeah, lose those other people who don't understand the banding process. PS I didn't know triscuits were mushies??
ReplyDeleteSorry you are having such a bad time right now. Don't get discouraged by the scale, you are not even filled yet. If you lose anything now it is just a bonus. Unfortunately, the process is just beginning when you have surgery, there is a LOT of time in between surgery and the "sweet spot" so don't set expectations that are unreasonable for yourself. You WON'T lose all your weight overnight, when you are at your sweet spot, you will lose like 2 pounds per week, so just calm down and try to just enjoy the ride, don't try to rush things.
1 - tell rick to be nicer to you or i'll come out there and kick his butt ;)
ReplyDelete2 - hope those darn scales start telling you good things really soon - you are working hard, you deserve it!
xxx
I think you've gotten some good advice from the others before me. It will likely be a slow process and your body is going to adjust. Patience isn't a virtue of mine so telling you be patient would make me a hypocrite so I'll just tell you breathe and take it slow ;) Love ya and I'm here if you need to vent.
ReplyDeleteI understand the loneliness all too well. Though Derek is home more than what it seems like Rick is, we don't talk much and it gets lonely being in the house with small children all day. I don't go out because I don't want to meet a bunch of fake, clique-y people. I want genuine caring and friendship. The only thing I can say would be to talk to Rick and ask him what his deal is, if he's trying to avoid you. And I would also just make sure you're doing what you can (physically, emotionally) to make coming home something he can enjoy. Not saying you're not, but this is something I have to routinely remind myself to do.